There is sunshine in my soul today.

I just booked the ticket to CA today. South California! I will visit my buddy Rowena at Orange County and San Diego is definitely in our plan. I am so excited and can't wait to see Rowena! It will be my third time to visit CA. On the trip back I will stop by Chicago and attend hooding ceremony. I hope everything will be fine and I will get my PhD degree. I am so excited and blessed. No matter how hard and unsatisfactory I feel on the way, I will only remember that I am happy in the end.

What's more, I will fly to Miami next weekend. Miami beach! Oh..Yeah! This is also the third time I visit FL. It has been three years in a row, always in May! I miss South Beach. I miss the bar called Ocean's Ten. I miss the sunshine there. I miss palm trees!

Someday out of the blue

It's a raining day all day and I thought Ruen would cancel my haircut appointment. It's under her strong request and kind persuadance that I finally decide to have a try. So we went to the city in rain. It turns out not bad, at least I feel. Then we went to candy's and have a nice dinner. Another week is over and tomorrow is Monday again. Isn't it nice? Now I feel very refreshing, especially after a long chat with Ruen last Friday night. I feel I am open again, breathing again. A brand new life is waiting for me. I hope I can stay long this time. I will try.

As our talk is always around life or love, I think I am picking things up. And through tiny things I realize how stupid I am. Stupid is stupid. And how ideal I dreamed about love. If I look back, I will see how many mistakes I have done yet how naive I have been. I promise I will look back as little as possible, but I won't make same mistake any more. I know I won't see you any more, but there is some you at some day, out of the blue, in a crowded street or a deserted square, I'll turn and I'll see you.

Here comes the rain again!

It started raining on Sunday morning when we came out of Copacabana. It has been a full night since we had dinner at Sol y Sombra. We had a good time with Jazz at Lincoln Center. Jazz is much better than that at Birdland, I guess one major reason is the size of space. It's also very refreshing to watch the tango there. I miss the time when I took the tango classes. Actually I miss all the dancing classes I have taken when I saw the pictures of BLAST dancing show this year. Some of my classmates are there, although I know they have learned dancing for years. But I still think it's not too late to pick them up. However, tango is different, it requires the body and the height so much that I don't want to challenge myself too much to do that. Salsa seems slightly less required and it's a more social dance. hmm...so many ambitions, I will crack one by another. By the way if I look back there are so many things I am very interested and enjoy doing yet I am not good at them at all. And someday I realize I have to be good at something, even just one thing. So how about learn dancing again and try to be a little better at it?

You can go your own way

So I start my blog here. Tonight I had a wonderful chat with Ruen. Wine, cheese and two young hearts. I feel I am closer to my self, my true self. I am not what you have seen, my friend, not what you have thought of, either. I am I, I am what I am, I am some floating soul that you may never discover. I love open mind, I love singing my mind, I love dancing my mind. And finally I will give it another shot. No matter what it ends to be, that is my another trial. What's more, I will pick up my swing, I will swing I will salsa..I will learn dancing again! I feel my soul has been dancing so long that I have to let my body catch it up. And I will learn to grow up. Everyday I feel it's now or never. And finally I am saying IT IS NOW.